Full-Blown Anxiety Attack

It happened last night,because my sons were 30 minutes late coming home. The more I looked at the clock the worse it got. I went through the worst case thoughts…car wreck,arrested,maybe Bret didn’t pick Jeremy up from school & Jeremy was left alone at school. I begged the old man to take me to the school. I needed to know my sons were alright or at least piece together what had happened. He took me to the school…it was closed. We checked the video store…no sign of our sons. Not knowing where else to look we went home. There was my car…they were home safe. 

Panic attacks,deep fears,phobias,anxiety,& depression are my daily companions. Those folks that don’t suffer with these thinks I am insane & with hate in their hearts,tells me I need help. Yes,I do need help. Yesterday I felt suicidal all day up until I fell asleep for the night. I am a burden to my family…it would be much better for them without me…but I’m not ready to die…I want to live on into old age. 

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About bavariandreams4ever

sporty cars are my passion...I love food & eating...I blog for therapy & fun...I am a hermit.,which is my husband's fault...long story. I am an Earth Angel with the gift of healing. I wish to teach the art of manifestation & write a book on that subject. I am here to teach & heal...that's my purpose,my calling. I am a spiritualist.
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