I Must Get Rich Quick

If I don’t get rich quick I will die a poverty stricken hermit in this old 1959 shack…& my sons will never have a rewarding future. We are all 4 doomed if I don’t get rich quick. 

I don’t know how to get rich. In my family we are all 4 ignorant & 3 of us are uneducated. Aight,there’s my 17 year old son,22 year old son,60 year old husband,& me…52. None of the 4 of us know how to be successful in life. 

Fat,Cold,& Ready To Cash In My Chips

I’m not even being funny. The other half the internet bill is due. I don’t have an invoice to make the payment & the old man won’t pay it. Flip it all! Its $172.00 a month! We can’t go elsewhere,cuz we can’t let anyone inside this dangerous old shack. We can’t move to a decent home,cuz our credit is shot all to hell. We are doomed! No hope! 

I fight to keep the internet…but is so dreadfully boring…but I’d go insane without it. Its a love/hate relationship.  

New Foods This Next Week

Low fat frozen dinners. Plus,the usual…fruits & cottage cheese,veggies,beans,yogurt,& rice. Have omitted the country fried steak & bagels,but will continue eating the canned chicken & rice. 

Its been a rough day. Ate a box of cinnamon knots. My oldest son has complained all day over a order he placed that didn’t work out. My youngest son is at the fair with some of his buddies. I am ready for him to come home. Its 9 in the evening. He has been gone for hours.

Started My Diet July 27,2015

not 3 weeks yet & I am already complaining. The food is good…its the slow progress thats discouraging. I look in the mirror & don’t see any changes or improvement. I don’t have a scale or full length mirror…nothing to measure my progress or lack of it. No one that sees me has noticed anything different about me. Oh,but I can walk without pain…that’s fantastic & I am grateful.

After A Closer Look…

Today I am as fat as ever. Tough as it will be…I must omit the steaks & alcohol beverages. Most likely its the booze that’s keeping me fat,bloated,& swollen. I look like a damn blimp. Whatever,I am not giving up. 

Tonight I bought lollipops,suckers,& gummy candy for snacking.  The fat woman eating is not me…I’m not that fat.

A Book I Can’t Read Or Even Hold It

I have the book & each time I see it I am reminded of the bitch on the author’s forum. She cussed me out & then banned me. It left me so traumatized I can’t read the book…or even hold it. I consider tossing it in the trash. 

Wendy,the bitch,was all claiming to be Laws Of Attraction…light,free,& angelic. I can’t remember what pissed the idiot off,but I had never been cussed out that profuse. That was like…maybe 5 years ago…& I am still not over it. The damn fool hated me from the beginning. 

A Really Crappy Night

I should have never watch a horror movie before bed. There was no sleep for me last night. I tossed & turned…cover on…cover off…stick a leg out,foot on floor…sit up on edge of the bed…rearrange the pillows…lay down…on side…legs stretched out…fetal position…on back,1 leg pulled up toward chest,other leg stretched out…this went on all night. 

My Daily Diet

southern fried steak

fruits

beans

veggies

cottage cheese

canned chicken

canned tuna

canned oysters

rice

bagels

chicken wings without sauce

fat free yogurt

diet soda

water

Do not mix the carbs with the proteins

Suffering With Severe Lung Spasms

A trip from the bathroom to the dining room leaves me gasping hard to breathe. It feels like a 300 pound man is sitting on my chest. Otherwise,I am doing better…no more pain when walking…& I am losing fat…looking more like a woman each day. This morning I woke up,looked at my arms,& was pleased by the fat I’ve lost in this short span of time. 

Last Night Was A Bitch

I was up all night with my belly & heart hurting. The pain was unbearable. On  top of that my teeth & ears were aching. I thought I was going to die. I felt nauseated. My belly & heart are still hurting. My lung spasms have worsened.